troubled
i love you.
maybe i posted too many happy post. that's why im back to emo-ing. *big sigh*
it started with repetitive sneezing fits and continuously dripping runny nose. then a slight sore in the throat and then reduced appetite and now a blocked nose and a heavy head. it didnt just stop here. took the chance to visit my dearest at her pet shelter on saturday after feeling i-am-totally-not-in-the-shape-to-touch-water(water training) or to-breathe-town-air(LD gathering). afterall, havent seen her for a month or two.
i broke into tears the moment i felt her spine and lifted her frail body out of her box. her pupils were dilated as if she just got anesthesized. suddenly i felt as if she was leaving me. the thought of how i missed dachi's last breath by just a kilometer away from the hospital thrashed my broken heart further. i cannot afford to lose another childhood playmate. (for those who dont know, my life in primary school revolves around cats and dogs because maids that i used to rely on are often switched and my parents and siblings often not with me.)
im praying. praying real hard that she'll eat. and regain her wildful energy to resist control, even if it means scratching blood out of me. sadistic i know, but the bond is beyond words. ): and this period feels like a crucial moment.
"please. if you need to go, at least go in my arms. in the comfort zone of a proper home away from that pet shelter that offers you no warmth. )))):"
All the sleepless nights;
and the tears you cry
at 12:24 PM
and the tears you cry
at 12:24 PM