still lickin' my paws

happy chinese NIU year.

Monday, January 26, 2009

斷了的弦再怎麼連

我的感覺妳已聽不見

妳的轉變像斷掉的線

再怎麼接音都不對

妳的改變我能夠分辨

我沉默妳的話也不多

我們之間少了什麼不說

哎喲

微笑後表情終於有點難過

握著妳的手

問妳決定了再走

我突然釋懷的笑

笑聲盤旋半山腰隨風在飄

搖啊搖來到妳的面前繞

妳淚水往下的掉

說會記住我的好

我也彎起了嘴角

笑

yay. im done with my promoting job that requires me to shout and stand whole day long. while the pay wasnt exactly what any JC student should be getting, the boss was quite nice la. he gave an extra angpow along with gifts in the form of his shop's new year goodies. and KIMCHI. yay.

met a couple of new friends. including one interesting jap guy. HAHA. so cool worx. like he only speaks abit of english.. it's so unfair, just because he speaks jap, he earns more than me and does lesser than me HAHA. oh wells, the pic above was when he had long hair. HOW INTERESTING. but he's bald like all the army boys now. i guess he had to shave it due to work.

also met hongkies and china bakerman. LOL. my dad had ingrained in me that chinese are very hardworking and that's why MNCs like to employ them while the native employees detest them. however, i got a "culture shock" when i see him sleeping at the store behind the stall everyday. HAHA. and he really sleeps like a log. HAHA. but he gives me shivers down my spine cause he kept praising me. HMMM. first he said i was hardworking. then he said my eyes were big. then he said he liked my voice( the voice itself or the volume? i dont know.) ahh whatever. and he so happens to stay at simei. how cool is that. HAHA. my colleague cheryl agreed with me that simei is filled with weird people HAHA.

i also met with this cat-high-hci guy who does cheerleading at NUS high. like WOW. at first i didnt associate cheerleading males with feminism. but his obsession with a gay working around and his constant slapping and waving of arm and wrist made me convinced that he's a bisexual---he had a gf. ALL DEH BEST FREDDIE!

then there's vino, vanessa, leona---I LOVE HER EYES AND HER NAME., geraldine, helen---she deh most efficient baker i've seen. and all the other aunties working around. it was fun sharing samples with one another. so we got to eat a wide variety of food without paying. HAHA. so fun (:

last night i found myself cursing at vadi once again. for not giving me my promo result slip. afterall, he lost the original, the re-printed and the re-reprinted. i severely need it for my profile whether or not im applying for a scholarship. cause i am affirmed that YES MY PROMO RESULTS LOOK BETTER THAN BOTH MY PRELIMS AND MY COMING A LEVEL RESULT SLIP. i cant help feeling down again whenever i think about econs. what if i really flunked it badly. yes it's a what if, but there's also a possibility. and i know it myself the best. who doesnt want to convince herself that she wouldnt do badly for her examination?

so it's the first day of the first lunar month and i find myself recovering from food poisoning. im not supposed to be anyhow eating. but who really cares. it totally spoils the fun if the food is controlled, though it would positively help also to control my weight.----the whole world of girls are complaining of weight gain. do you realise that?

alright. today is kinda a bore. temple and one house-visit and we're back home. and it hasnt rained.---i also consider pouring as rain. ): ok. after new year, it's part-time job and driving instructor searching...

no more hopes pinned on recruit express. and so no high-end jobs like attachments at clinics or lab technicians. i find myself needing more freedom and fun. im turning back to friends who do not aspire so high and far to guide me through. suddenly, their lives seem more feasible and down-to-earth. at most, i turn myself back to doing technical stuff like hairdressing and coffee-brewing. afterall, researching and managing was never in my "what-i-want-to-be-when-i-grow-up" list. then again, maybe it's just be thinking about, "that lawyer/doctor/vet will never be me. cause the dream is too far and tough to achieve. im just an ordinary person. i can never get up there with strings unattached.".

think about it.

All the sleepless nights;
and the tears you cry
at 6:22 PM

Saturday, January 17, 2009

hey people.
i am so tired.
i work about 10 hours a day. standing and talking to customers all day long.
i return home and binged on "dinner" at 12am.
NO WONDER i gained weight even before its CNY.
but then. hungry. don't care.
i work with people of the same age.
it's really really fun. i must say.
and i get free food here and there from all the sharing of food samples between stalls.
we laughed, joked and whined like a neighbourhood.
that's really heart-warming.

last night i happily dreamt that i was getting married.
and the bloody alarm clock rang.
so the groom's face was still a blur.
let's see if there's a season 2 tonight.

back to the job thing.
i've been ~~de-moted~~ promoted to a promoter. from a baker assistant.
to handle and draw in all sorts of customers.
i swear this is a tiring job.
especially when customers come together in "gangs" to order and try out food samples.
and leave together..
leaving us one-moment-bored-dead, one-moment-hectic-dead.

so my next job shall be slacker.
so i can focus on driving.. quick quick.
and yes. guitar.
it has been so not rotting at a corner of my room.
unless you expect me to practice it every night at this time.

ok. see ya. and if you really do. please don't tell people where i am.
PLEASE.

All the sleepless nights;
and the tears you cry
at 12:59 AM

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

a couple of stuff to complain, whine and wail about. so here goes my day. today DUH.

tried to climb out of bed in the morning but the wind was blowing me back to bed (yar. bullshit i know. but just fill yer minds with imagination la) so there goes my morning run.

headed to SSDC for apply for my PDL, sign up for FTT and INTENDED to deposit some cash into my account. surprisingly, the system could not.. then i was thinking why syah's driving centre could. EEYER. damns. that means i'll have to spend another 93 cents x 2 = 186 cents in order to book my trial theory test. DAMNS.

i was ~~such a noob~~ lost when i went to apply for my PDL.

i didnt know where the queue number should be taken
i didnt know that there was a form to fill in before going to the counter
i didnt know payment was ONLY by NETS--WTFWTFWTF.
i didnt know how to do the eye test--GAWD KNOWS "E" IS UP DOWN LEFT OF RIGHT.

~~and i really didnt know the reference sheet was right in front of my face on the glass panel.~~

yeps. i guess the woman serving me at the counter got abit impatient the moment i gave her this reaction: "O_O. OOOH. there's a form to fill arh.. i didnt know.." so she pressed the next TWO numbers to her counter. SO THANKS ARH. when i was doing my eyetest, THREE PAIRS OF EYES were staring lah. yes the test was easy. BUT CERTAINLY STRESSFUL. then thank goodness this random guy helped me to pay my PDL with his NETS (of course i returned him the money).

went to AMK library to kill a bit of time since there wasnt really a queue at SSDC except when applying for PDL----FILLED WITH 20++ CHINESE DRIVERS-WANNABE LAH. called sister..

" ahh halo. im at AMK central.. "

"orh. but i want to go northpoint leh.."

"ok lor. then (you come fetch me)* i wait for you outside the library"

"ok." ---phone hung.

in the end.. i waited for 50 minutes!! and she thought that i was at yishun library!! WTH. ok. so i spent my lunch alone.. in misery~~. NAAAH. kidding. i was having fun scamming kfc with my student ez-link. WAHAHAHHA.

at night it was SUPPOSED to be my first guitar lesson. but err. i guess it was miscommunication, my class should be starting next week. THANKS ARH. (so, since i cant attend the next 2 lessons and class's also cancelled for the CNY week, i'd be starting my lesson officially ONLY IN FEB. pfff.) but oh wells. since im there.. i just SAT DOWN for the next 1 hr.. at first i kinda stoned cause attention wasnt on the new students! now there's this melody stuck in my head.. cause they were playing it over and over again...

back home. i "hugged" yuheng's guitar for the next 2.5 hrs even though nothing was taught. aiya. the stupid chords. so hard to memorise. i ended up yahoo-ing for acoustic guitar instead.. then via a video, i figured out the strings to pluck and which to press.. just that, it's a super dubper elementary method.. (similar to how people=me=people=me=people=me=people start playing the piano with 2 fingers AND without even knowing how to read the notes.)

yh totally made my day when he asked, "who's pink?" lol. and oh yea.. apparently, there's a rock band called pink floyd. so confusing right. EEEYER. (and he didnt know pink floyd either. let's just take it he's too mesmerised by jay chou.)

ok. work starts tomorrow. at 2pm, instead of 8am. ---I THOUGHT I GOT SCAMMED. ok forget it. pointless to complain anymore. i really should. forget it.

All the sleepless nights;
and the tears you cry
at 11:34 PM