Thursday, January 24, 2008

WAHAHAH. i think sweet loves this song and can relate it to ME by now. WAHAHAH. she must be regretting awfully why she made that choice to send me that song. WAAHHAHHA. i sung it in the toilet, on our way to the mrt, on her dad's lorry, at the canteen table etc. and i assure you that she'll give this standard expression: dropped jaws, widened eyes, gagged voice. haha. in short, the mixture of zonked and dumbfounded. HAHA.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RENU.

these are what i/we did for her:

• bought american rejects CD for her with sally, jane and sweet
• the class wrote a birthday card for her. but so happened that muffin needs to be warmed---she has a cold~... so renu doesnt get her card today.
• suzie bought her a white zinc sling bag on behalf of the class
• SW band "ep"---i still dont know what it means. but oh wells. it's just something like SW band's first recording. AND I CANT BELIEVE HONEY CLAIMED THE MANAGER POST BUT DID NOTHING.

hmm. sounds quite little. i wonder what goh did to her in the morning. haha. what a day for her. imagine your birthday falling on the day of your napfa trail test. AND IT'S JUST TRAIL TEST. IN JANUARY!!!!!!

i was kinda stressed out the pass few days and really exhausted and thankew everyone for your concern. special mention to sms from sweet and letter from swan. THANKEWS. all the tests, tight and still clashing cca schedules, dued homework, lack of sleep and perhaps even the thought of my cats. ): oh.. at least econs class test is over and napfa trail is over--i ran 14.05 min!!! sheesh. need to run faster. thanks baobei-er for the pacing. what's more to come is inevitably, clashing ccas, liondance performances plus that extra trainings for rehearsals.. soccer fitness test's coming, bio evolution test.. mock SPA AND THE LISTS GOES ON. i totally look forward to weekends for my beauty sleep which unfortunately will soon bve robbed off by liondance performances OH GREAT. RAWWWWWWRRRR.

at least im happy...ier? today. yepps. much better with earlier bedtime last night at 11.40pm which hotlips claims it's late and swan says early.. cause they slept at 10pm and 12.30pm respectively. haha. oh wells. at least NO LIZARD, NO GREEN WORM, NO BIG ANT DROPPED ON ME LIKE YESTERDAY. am i that attractive really?

oh yes. totally camwhored at swan's house after recording yesterday. haha like 70 photos within 15min? the lians pose, bimbo pose, act cute pose. all kinda MUCK just flowed out. haha. but it was fun though. and sweet's pap and mom sent me home again. I FEEL SO EMBARRASED for making them send me home. ironically, i dont feel the same for singing tone-deaf loudly at sweet at the back of the lorry. WAHAHAHHA. and the i-can-give-you-gatsby song. woots.

OK. MRS RAIN. IT'S TIME TO WAKE UP. AND FOCUS AND PRIORITISE LIKE WHAT SWAN SAID. don't play too much. complete what's important first. yea, i'll heed her advice. thankew once again.

OH. MOM'S BIRTHDAY IN 5 DAYS TIME. celebration this sunday. CHAM LIAO. what should i get her? or maybe i should just spend more quality time at home with her instead of staying out late for cca and what-so-ever reasons. yes. i should. mama needs me. (:

Friday, January 18, 2008

i didnt go for HHdramafest audition today. and im not very happy about it. really upset. cause it meant that i'll be losing touch with drama/acting for another long period of time. and the only way to release that pressure in me is to express myself extrovertly wherever i go. this is sad. i have no stage. i have no voice. i have no audience. and no one knows me.
chinese new year's around the corner and naturally, liondance has to step up on its training and practices to keep up with the sudden surge of demand for performances by ymca, redcross, imh, canteen vendors etc. hence that obviously have left me well occupied at least for the month of feburary. with my chairperson emotionally fragile, i even more couldnt possibly refuse her request to train. that's her passion anyway. im losing mine. i certainly do not wish that she suffers that fate too.
soccer's seasons coming and it's definitely a no-no to slack off into hi-coach-we-play-a-game kinda attitude. hardcore training on fitness and skills is. all these is to prepare for the season in april/may. while it has been announced that our fitness test, supposedly as a yardstick to choose the school team, is on the 4th of feb[which incidentally falls on one of my test dates], the coach briefly mentioned that the school team has to be picked by end of january. man. this is no time to slack and throw away my chance to join to soccer school team. i must buck up! and i'll have to attend as many trainings, including the informal physical trainings on monday[which clashes, again, with liondance training.]
with four days a week of five occupied by by 2 ccas and hardly any time for revision or even family time, how could i possibly commit further to dramafest which may most likely rehearse at least thrice a week? turkey suggested that i give it a shot first and then draw out when i cannot cope. i really felt like following her advice. it seemed so feasible. but. WHY GIVE THEM HOPE WHEN YOU KNOW IT'S HOPELESS? nothing is working out well for me. nope. and yes. im attention seeking. i need to vent it out.

played class basketball once again for about 2hrs this noon. when the sun is at its peak and burning our skin at it's best. kebab's friend joined in and so did yuheng*cheers*. both of them seemed too professional to play with, bearing in mind the rate of dehydration during the game. jane did stupid wild things as usual. and turkey accidently did what i did last time to jane too. OOPS. the NGs are really related in our class. "common ancestor" as baby comment. and thanks loads to pauline for the ball. haha. now it's winniee's turn to whine about how bad he is at basketball and bowling suits him better. oh wells. all i can say is that for most mechanical work, practice is what you do to perfect it. and it very wells applies to relationships you grow.

soccer has trails for the ever-known-as-irritating j1s today. game, heading, kicking, suicides aka shuttle run, ladder trail and 1.6km run. all planned to test out their team cooperation, ball techniques, agility, speed, endurance and strength. impressive. i guess the '08 batch is gonna lose out to them. this is bad. and i worry for my place in the team... and talking about my desperation, im getting practical and straight to the point. excellent a levels results with an impressive cca record is what i need now. i no longer beat around the bush when it comes to serious matter. in fact, i hate it when i don't get what i want. i just hope that i achieve everything with a consicence at least.

at the end of the day. i turned into a lobster with a sulking face. drama drama, drifting away. leaving me with a life with a passion burning out. no. this is bad. maybe i should have joined the external drama---dramabox to fufil my dream.

one thing to keep me optimistic. swan's house on this sunday noon.
thingS that stones down my heart. forensic science workshop w/o caramel or sweet. upcoming tests. hectic liondance and soccer. the thought of drama forgone.

cries.

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

OH MY TIAN. our new CT's character is totally not what happens back at st nicks. SO GIRLY!!! yes. she dresses well, shows confidence but erm, it's hard to describe. maybe it's just me who gets distracted by the different danglings she wears everyday and the thought of how she manages to balance on such HIGH hell heels.

oh wells, liondance today and i couldnt even stand or sit anytime or anyway i want. im aching ALL OVER and there's still pe tomorrow. WOAH. im dead. alright, let's just enjoy whatever we're suffering now, cause it'll most probably be what we remember and miss best after we graduate. yea. so stop avoiding those obstacles in life, though easier said than done, just TRY.

oh wells, it's late. AGAIN. besides searching for more updated RAIN pictures, MIKA's really keeping me awake and optimistic with his totally unique voice and all his cheery songs.. WHEEEE. I THINK MIKA ROCKS MAN. but rain is still my dearest.--OKAY. LET ME POINT THIS OUT CLEARLY. i am NOT like this back in st nicks.-- WAHAHHA.

http://mikaontour.imeem.com/

oh wells. time to spam pictures.

hot boddaaaaay.

my current msn dp. =P

here's mika!!

and a NICER looking picture of him (:

SERIOUSLY. addicted to his songs at 12am in the morning? hah. now i cant sleep.

AND YESH. SW's band gonna meet up tomorrow to record their first song. WAHAHAH. *grabs stomach. pain. pain. pain. ouch. aching. and i continue to laugh.

Monday, January 14, 2008

started day off by meeting sweet at the mrt station at 7.15am.. apparently i kinda got the kiasu germs and reached there like 2 trains early.. at one moment i even thought the station survellience camera was shooting me. HAH. oh wells.

sweet wanted to watch how SOMEBODY run in the morning cause sally called me the day before to run with him but he finally found jane to run 4km which i seriously doubt that they could accomplish it. like hello? one knee got problem, the other errr.. stamina a bit need improvement.. HOW TO RUN SO MUCH AT A TIME. well, it was too predictable la. sally ended up running 3.6km and jane 3.2km. alright alright, a round of applause for these two gentlemen. WAHAHAH.

sweet and i ran with patricia who like already ran 4 rounds before us. like WOAH. blister + training after school.. and still run in the morning. WOAH. she ran a total of 8. sweet ran 4 and i 5.. oh wells. i guess i might be just as crazy at pat..[which you'll know why as you read on YOURSELF] and yes yes. there was this part whereby the self-proclaimed-SMART retard actually thought running thought the white fog meant for mosquito..culling?! was fun. nice. i wonder if your lungs and other biological system enjoyed it too. HMMM.

for the rest of the day, besides seeing engwei like almost EVERYWHERE and hearing swan squeal each time she sees something she likes... i only remember how honey kept slapping sweet on her legs. i totally pity her,really. i guess honey just has to have that kinda child-like mindset--no offence actually-- to communicate well with her really young sisters. really. i guess that's why i hate talking to my cousins. they always seem too children and irritating to the self-proclaimed mature me. WAHAHAHHA. oh wells.

and it was the ever-exciting time for class bonding straight after school. BASKETBALL. woots. havent played that hand-held dribbling round leather object in ages. haha. and it really brings me back in j1 life. WE SHOULD HAVE THAT OFTEN. really. all the tutorials and tests are not gonna make our jc lives anymore memorable. haha. ---i was sacarstic. can you sense that?! haha. karenMOK either throws it too hard or soft all the time and kebab complains about the ball being too light. WTH can. hahah. we or is it just me? got a heart-attack when mel got caught by the teacher for playing in full school uniform.. ok. false alarm. and an advice to tall people: when catching the rebound, watch out for the tallER people.

rushed for liondance after that and peeled some orange to form words.. trying to form some other different auspicious words besides "JI", i tried to form "WANG". due to the limited pieces of orange slices, i couldnt form the word legibly. err. and yar, i was kinda stubborn and complaint it was because i only was given one orange!! tian should have passed my two!! haha. ok. IM A VERY RIGID PERSON.

and soon i left liondance for soccer at 4.30pm when it was pouring like hell and the spectator gallery filled with various ccas and i saw karenMOK staring... RAWR. so germs decided to take us on a tour all the way through the canteen to the windytables. she almosts led us into RI until STRONG VIOLENT objections were raised. then all the PT stuffs slowly smoked its way bringing us aches from our calves, thighs, abs, behind the neck, arms.. and whatever you mention.. these physically dehydrating training really brings me back into my secondary one school days when i was a netballer.. but somehow, is it that im fitter or what, the trainings at RJC level doesnt seem as tiring. of course, please don't compare with ultra-mega-crazy ccas like canoeing. oh wait. it might even be on par with my cca back in st nicks, or even the trail netball training back at AJC. wow. how did i survive those days mann. while in one way i really hated it, it leaves me with such wonderful memories regardless of time.

haha. long blog again. and i didnt touch my homework. cause im tired. but more of sick of doing homework after all the physical exercise. and there's still soccer tomorrow at 5pm. NICE. let's hope it'll be fun. MUAHAHAH.

oh. mel's bday tomorrow. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELMEL. i wonder what's going on tomorrow.. HMM.

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

im so tired ever since school started this week. like OH MY TIAN. 2 ccas continuously on mon.. then i totally forgot what i did on tuesday.. OOOOH. that cca fest rehearsal that was supposed to end at 3pm but ended up dragging till 5 or 6pm. that was hell. and i can't believe why i brought myself to "torture" this morning too... running 6 or 7 rounds--yes i FORGOT again. OOPSY.--though not continuously, was accumulative hell. DARN. tired. *dozes off. ok la. i didnt. hah. it didnt just ended.. liondance still had cca fest performance..--shall elaborate about it later in my essay.

ok. AJ CLASS OUTING. which had an attendance improvement of like 10%?! from the last outing. haha from 5 to 6 people this time. WOAH. how nice. oh wells. i should have expected it. everyone's busy with their orientations and cca commitments--cause that's what happens to MOST jcs when school reopens. rawr. ms huiwen slimmed down loads. and im glad she eats. or at least in front of me to make me feel like guilty? uncle yongyuen's slightly taller than me and he weighs like 44.sth kg. like WTH. what are u made of?? wood? auntie bern aka mrs yongyuen has BROWNED haha. ok tanned. A LOT. hockey training in ajc is real hardcore. imagine running more than 20 rounds before official training starts. YEA. kahyan came this time. and i assure you having a vegetarian friend is NOT a chore. seriously, her diet had helped to very much reduce our choice of dinning that night. WAHAHAHA. shining didnt come ): last but not least, jonathan.. oh wells, as fair and white as ever. lol. but i like his bling bling hanging around his neck. TAI! and oh yes. what have become of guys today? 2 pieces of pizza and you're full? YOU'VE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME.

im glad i'll be meeting up with stnicks classmates soon during chinese new year celebrations at the school. WOOOTS. class reunion lunch. HOW'S THAT. oh mannn. and val yao has gone ga-ga the moment i told her about the plan. time's not confirm,however. hmmm.
while though i really look forward to that day coming, i dread all the tomorrows cause it only meant us being closer to the a levels butcher knife. YES. THAT SCARY.

caramel says i use A LOT of adjectives. thus resulting into a sibei long essay. WAHAHAH. ok. i think that's true

so what about today... sweet said she'll come to school earlier since her dad is fetching and i ended up in school at like 6.40pm. -_-" that noob came only 5 minutes before sally came. HOW NICE. caramel later came.. seriously, i felt quite healthy and satisfied after that run despite the almost instant muscle aches from my neck all the way down to my calves. RAWR. ok wait. my bottom line should be. it's SHIOK. so i should do it more---but it means sacrificing my sleep. wait. actually it doesnt. does it? ------at this point of time. i try to stop contradicting myself

had to forgo for regular lunch time for the sake of completing the bio prac worksheet, which the WHOLE class handed in at the end of the lesson. KAO. seriously MALU-ating. thank you swan for accompanying me. (: and there was when xiaoyan~ POPPED out and started his monotonous "hairband...hairband...hairband..." AGAIN. OH SHEESH. he was worst than a fly.. at least when a fly keeps bothering you, you can get an insecticide to silence it. but errr. oh wells. senior mah. MORE OR LESS also haha. must give respect. RIGHT? but anyway, swan later got contaminated and started "hairband.."ing outside the staff room. at that instant, i felt like throwing my fist into her mouth. but on second thought. NAHHH. her mouth too small, later i hurt my fist how? HAHHAA. okok. swan JUST KIDDING.

left to prepare to shift the lionheads as swan turned a deaf ear,literally as she gossiped with tweety and turkey. haha. the BIRDS talk. WAhahahaHAHAHAH. xiaoyan~ later said HIMSELF that he's a weakling that he can't really liondance anymore due to health implications. oh wells. no la. or at least after you BMT? HAVE FUN AND GOOD LUCK--so you won't get confined.

thank you so much to xiaoyan~ and simin for helping to replace the samuel and waihan. really.----i shall cut down on description here considering im not that good at expressing appreciation. and get well soon to the 2 sickly poor chaps who really need to rest.

ok.. i just opened this email... this is what our cca mentor teacher typed in..
"I've been reminded about the opening ceremony of the Arts Festival in April, which is another chance to showcase your skills - so can I take it that all of you would like to participate?"
OH GREAT. besides chinese new year performances--which i PRAY wont clash with soccer camp-- and teaching the J1S..... sheeeeesssssh. JIAYOUS MAN. remember. it's a JOYOUS OCCASSION. ya. im sure

almost everything went well today. from the setting up of equipments, the control of music, the sexayback dance steps... except for unfortunately, zhanjiao.. which is the most important stunt which we failed to balance. oh wells. at least EVERYONE GAVE LIONDANCE ATTENTION FOR ONCE. really. i was still thinking yesterday.. the moment the mc asked for band.. i yawned and walked away. what about us? what will the j1s think of us? boring? hah. okay. i guess im quite prominent for now in school for shaking that female lion butt. hah. just remember us. liondance. we'll be very happy. now im just worrying about the pink lion which got a lil wet.. OOPS. not enough LD fund. SHEESH.

and the poster. hah.

SWAN. I LOVE YOU MANNS. beside the chance of talking to h7 once again, i saw pisq like don't know how many times today.. besides during and after... i saw pisq again when i was shifting back the equipments. AND CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? and my laogong supported my too!! RAINing is nice. though sometimes it kinda spells more trouble. oh wells. i think it's better than draught. hah. ok. that was damn random.

OH YAR. IM SO SORRY JANE. errrm. i mean jian hui. for the slap in the face and the swing into somewhere... SORRY. but i seriously don't have the 10 million bucks you want. SORRY. by the way, who ask you to suddenly appearing from behind. haiyo. oh my tian. im so TOTALLY malu-ated today.

Sunday, January 6, 2008

oh wells. it's supposed to be a happIER year to headstart with since that i've moved house and that my brother's got married.. i guess i really need a place to vent my frustration and explain the cause of my VERY frequent PMS-like symptoms these days.


number one, i got scolded for some shit reason my 2bro came up with.. that since the computer is to be placed in "my" room, i MUST know how its function and programmings. like err... "all i just need is a simple family-friendly common and normal functioning comp that doesnt hang and shuts down on its own..." HELLO. how come you didnt react to your[also "our"] sister who is 2 years your senior as sternly as what you did to me when the last comp was in her room????! and she was also >17[my age] when that happened!!! COWARD. dam you.

number two, im starting to really lose my privacy at home.. what they term as "my" room is more like a guest room where anyone and everyone just comes in to sit on my bed without permission or notice. my wardrobe gets slide open, drawers pulled and bed slept on. what really irritates me is when before the first beam of sunlight enters my eyes, i see that coward using the comp in "my" room, in front of my bed. like WTH. first you tell me im the only person who needs[according to him a want. -_-"] the computer at home and then there you are stuck to it before i even wake up. and speaking of usage of comp in MY room, he seems to be ignorant that his SEVENTEEN YEAR OLD SISTER doesnt need privacy. not even in her OWN room.


a point to note of why the comp landed in "my" room.--it's mine only AFTER ALL THE OTHER ROOMS HAVE BEEN TAKEN. so you think i have a choice? AND YOU STILL THINK THE YOUNGEST SIBLING GETS THE BEST? BULLSHIT. 1] the previous owner made my room a study room via drilling a hole, literally, through the wall so the wiring for internet connection neednt be stretched to its limit. hence, following his mindset as well as to avoid drilling more holes, ta-dah. the comp is here. 2] my room is the second biggest.. hence due to SPACE scarcity... oh wells. cut the crap. 3] [ they made this reason which i obnly agreed to a certain extent] i am the only person in the household who will use this comp all the time. hmmm. the above example should have proved to everyone otherwise.

number three, apparently the animal crisis is back. everyone is going back on their word. how could they. i always found a channel in the cats to unleash my feelings. now i feel like my heart is bursting and im gasping for air.


so in short. i feel this way. i have a family but not a home. i have a room but not a shelter. life totally sucks. staying out of the house seems better, really.


ok. now i feel much better.


YEEAAAAH. let's blog. (: FINALLY.


as a memoir for 2007. here are all my first times[as far as i can remember] in 2007 before 2008 came.

• i cant believe how many times i kboxed this year. but yea, my first time in kbox occurred this year too.
• bought dangling earings--i never dared to wear them for fear of catching a branch with it or something..
• chose my own nice nice curtain colour. SCARLET
• wore a 2 piece school uniform. haha. wearing the prominent blue IJ uniform for 10 years recalled all sorts of retarded, awful, vivid memories.
• openly went gaga over somone till i got kinda fed-up and decided to tone down.
• wore fbts. ok. this is quite minor. lol.
• waved at EVERY motorists, drivers and pedestrians from a lorry.---did that twice on the 31st dec.
• not cut my hair for 1.75 years or so.
• polished my nails for 2 weeks consecutively.
• talked to men openly about the bra--PWPWPWPW :/
• realised that any guy of any age from any school can be just at irritating and provoking.
• i lived one and a half years without a dog.. ):
• realised that guys could also have red hot pulpy lips.
• got hit by fireworks debris -__-" wth.
  ok. here's a sibei unprofessional short clip of the fireworks.. the time i turned away.. is the time i got hit.
  
  
  
• had my own room
• realised not all RI boys are noobs and/or irritants
• realised both my parents have very similar AP and they are both as stubborn to admit their similarities.
• took sooo many photos and shook so many hands and smiled idiotly soooo many times within 2 hours on dec 31st as a clown
• oh yea. first time as a clown.. the poor makeup due to hotlips...

and here's a spam of the sweet's pic.
a group photo taken by a drunken old angmoh. LOL.

• shook hands with a bangladesh worker too. O_o. and he came up to me. i didnt go to him. WOW.
• went to the zoo, bird park, night safari all within a period of 3months and for free. *smirks.
• lay on the road[with sweet on 31st] like nobody's business in an attempt to prove how empty the road was without vehicles.

• tickled the chins[shaved or unshaved] of guys not blood-related. i did that to my bros and dad when i was really young.
• first time. SAW MY HUBBY[RAIN] IN PERSON.
• attended his[RAIN] concert/ stepped into the indoor stadium


• became a parrapazi on 31st.
• took a shot with kym ng. but i totally looked like shit.

• recieved a letter from brunei darussalum THANKEW MINGHWEE
• joined/volunteered at a countdown party.. AND THIS FIRST TIME LOCATION IS SOOO NEAR... like boon lay.. -_-"
• got offered some cigarrettes.
• had a makeover...
• moved house.
• stayed at a classy air-conditioned chalet in a co-ex class. my family werent worried. they knew i could settle everything myself. HOW NICE.
• zhanjiao with my FIRST lionhead.ms goh tian--who reminded me to add this in
• ate mcflurry. wahaha. believe it or not.

alright. such a long post. with SOOO MANY PICS. here are some random out-of-nowhere shots to end of with (:

balloons. lots of it.bebe.

before makeup removal. that one last shot.

she looks intimidating. but actually.. she was really exhausted.shant comment. LOL.

let's hope for the better into the year. next blog. if i remember. on my aj "class" outing. stnicks planning in the process.

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