economic terms applied in school.
each time i enter a new environment, i make hasty n stupid decisions. this is like a straw--it sucks. dam damn, so many reservoirs built...
when i entered sec1. i made a choice to join netball.. not knowing how tough it would be n how i could cope.--stupid.
then i decided to switch cca in sec 2. into cldds leaving my teamates that went through blood n sweat situations with me--stupid.
after i got my o's, i should have gone to hcjc... where i could make friends where a larger proportion of the sch is not through-train. but i followed my mom's order.. go rj which is closer--stupid.
immediately i started search for ccas... i rushed into lion dance without thinkin twice. in fact, thrice--stupid.
i went for volleyball tryout. and i got in! but because of lion dance, i rejected the cca offering a place in e team for me--stupid.
so many opportunity cost. so many chances went past me. so bullshit. the stupid me,that is.
now im left with no position and so insignificant--i was not nominated for LD exco cause im a 2nd intaker. where should i head? how many more shit am i to go through? i've got friends. but none that is willing to take steps with me as far. perhaps, it's e downfall after success. i shouldnt be here. i shouldnt.
WHY AM I SO STUPID?!
All the sleepless nights;
and the tears you cry
at 11:04 PM
Saturday, April 7, 2007
darn the stupid makeup lessons... now i cant go for my og cip. arrggh. sad. and im so tired.--tt's y i sleep till 11am EVERYWEEKEND. yea. so happoi tt it was good friday ytd. so i can rest today n tmr too!!! YESH. to think i was so sleepy tt i doze off in frnt of the tv beofre 10pm.. n i havent bathed..oops! wateva. i only reached hm at 8pm+ okay...
was supposed to go running ytd. but.. too lazy. n i think dada was in damn gd mood ytd la. we had fried chicken n fries for lunch.. then immediately after tt he asked who wanted ice-cream... AHHHHH!!!! THE CALORIES. but who cares.. in the end, i didnt eat icecream.. i ate hashbrownS instd. wohoo!
wat a exotic family i have u must say.. besides gg to geylang to.. erm.. open our eyes to another part of the society--to put it nicely. , we when to drink after dinner ytd. cool huh.. waah. imagine, drinking beer so openly in public.. heheh... but the thing is I DUN LIKE BEER. taste weird. i like martini,choya and erm.. sweet wine bettar. but it's damn cool like.. imagine gettin into places that look so ulu-ulu but there's actually a restraunt in it!! n i mean no lights no civilisatn... woo~~. haha. abit crazy. but this is a must in rj. or u'll BORE TO DEATH.
tt's y u must know me. and be HONOURED.
ogutelannawnudutemdnajrotemaci. ydanceyeymrutahttencrep9.99flesymhlohi,rerht,ginmrahcos. fgaevahydrlau,sawsyawlaisadiputstub. ogutelattogidnakcussiht. sehsurcynamootevahu,uottaeperemteltub,wenkydrlauknihti... tsilehtno000,01rebmunehtekilmitebi... loohcsniraeppaduhsiyotsanoitavitomeromdnifllahsi,wonroftub.. that's y i typed it like that. so u cant read.
All the sleepless nights;
and the tears you cry
at 4:24 PM