Saturday, March 28, 2009
i hate it when i scheduled out time. and then my ******* choose not to go. and so there went the outing.
i hate it when people complained of my misdeeds when he could have told me straight in the face if i've done anything wrong, what more things that have already been advised by another in public.
i hate it when everyone keeps silent and dont stand up for me.
i hate it when people i trust do not fufill their trustworthy-ness.
i hate it when he praises another one. and tell me how hardworking that one is.
but i can't do anything. everything is beyond my control.
these are the times that life just suck.
oh gosh. i need a drink. eh no. a drink is not enough.
All the sleepless nights;
and the tears you cry
at 12:01 AM
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
hey babes and
hunks out there.
oh gosh. it's already mid-march but i've yet to make my intentions to apply for any scholarship since it's release on 5th march. my my my. what a boom! day it was. if i were a couple of cohort back, or like from some other jc, i would have triumphed. together with her even. but times are different, and so are the way people hardcoring through their notes and tutorials. i shall be optimistic and say: im actually not stupid. i was just, wasnt in the right state when i took the papers. yup yups. and so, i shall continue to hesitate to apply for one until the deadline draws even nearer. let's just hopes i wont regret. anyway, LOOK AT THE BLARDY NUMBER OF
BITCHES AND BASTARDS out there scoring straight As compared to previous years! how would i ever stand a chance beside them? life's still unfair.
driving has been the lesson i found to have dreaded the most since i was born. i'd rather have gone for some crazy mama training rather than to release clutches and do vertical parking. GAWD. IMAGINE THE PRACTICAL TEST DAY. maybe i'll use: I'D RATHER DO 2 MARATHONS AT A GO RATHER THAN THAT DRIVING TEST. see how much i dread it now. at least i havent got myself into any trouble. and to ensure i keep a clean record, i shall pray as much as possible with all my heart.
hmmm. now what. oh WORK. haha. work has been replacing that whole in my life ever since i stopped schooling(for now duh). so at least im not rotting at home or splurging all my savings away, even though i still do... like, before AND after work. if the stalls are still open that is. (: a couple of polytechnic friends made and some really respectable and not-so-respectable chefs made... tralalala~ of course, in the mean time, i also learnt how nasty some customers could be, such as expecting fine-dining service at our cafe. LAUGH YOUR BLARDY ASS OFF. so many times we, the staff, were tempted to tell such "guests" off: "eh. sorry sir/mdm, if we do not meet your standards, you can just cross the road and head off to raffles hotel. they will provide the service you want.... and oh yar, before you leave, please don't forget to foot the bill. thank you." yea, so i kinda learnt to be more understanding to restaurants that provide lower than usual service, they could be new staff, having trouble opening the blardy cork from that
grand chateau 2002, or having other customers to attend. and most importantly, IF YOU EXPECT TO BE TREATED THE BIGGEST LIKE A VIP, TREAT YOUR SERVER AS ONE. plus plus plus, servers are NOT servants. oh. look. so much fumes from last night.
class outing was on monday night. for jianhui. oh wells. great hugs to swan and jwong for "giving me face" to attend the gathering at marina square's breeks. OH MY GAWD. i almost fainted when i first got to know of the venue.. like.. it seems like another working day. but heng it wasnt i was dressed up differently (: YAY. i was OUTCASTED by the girls to sit and stone in front of poor weihan and yuheng who also had got nothing to say. plus, i was kinda half-hanging in "mid-air" thinking of my colleagues like forze and RP. like how busy would the place be. should i go over to the bar for a drink while having a chat forze.. and popping by for RP and shanka. gosh. at least i didnt take my phone out to sms. so rude can if i did that during the dinner. (at least im not so smitten over RP anymore. i thought of you renu too. WHY DIDNT YOU GOOOO...)
was intending to go clubbing with seet tonight actually. but i failed to give her a reply, and TA-DAH clubbing outing cancelled. let's just treat it as a money-saving day for some other clique outing kay my dear (: (:
drew looks at me
i fake a smile so he won't see
what I want and I need
and everything that we should be
i'll bet she's beautiful
that girl he talks about
and she's got everything
that I have to live without
drew talks to me
i laugh 'cause it's just so funny
i can't even see
anyone when he's with me
but now.
i'll spread my wings
and I'll learn how to fly
though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
i gotta take a risk
take a chance
make a change
and breakaway
out of the darkness and into the sun
but I won't forget the place I come from
i gotta take a risk
take a chance
make a change
and breakaway, breakaway, breakaway
All the sleepless nights;
and the tears you cry
at 8:38 PM