today shouldnt be a blogging day still.
Monday, November 30, 2009

i am freaking freaking bored out by notes after notes. especially when i think i understand something, and then DINGDING! the next moment im referring back to the page. and the cycle repeats, viciously. how irritating.
i was browsing through with low hopes
http://canoepolo3on3.wordpress.com/ when i was so down after 103 paper. (not that i did well or bad for 103, but it's really a rojak feeling, and it wasnt pleasant at all) then i felt this adrenaline rush, all the people there, the sport, the fun and true life and only life i'd be getting from my last official chapter of studying life. and then i msn-ed senior F who gave me suggestions and how they themselves actually coped. i agreed. in one way or another, we'll definitely overcome it. besides, when you're really stressed up with work, it's good to go for some distractions. NEVERMIND the cost if you can AFFORD and have the PASSION. OPY was telling me just that, thank you. i think my adventurous nature is not gonna be smacked down by the workload. if i really like it, i should go for it. (same goes for you guys)
so im sort of settled back into canoepolo-ing and splurging the big bucks on the sport. afterall, i'll never get to really learn the sport out there let alone touch it once i step foot out of the country. so, i'll just take it that im paying $350 (min.) as a 3 year membership to take up canoe polo "courses" actually, making such calculation, it's kinda worth it actually. think it from the swimming lessons POV (point of view) (some people claim i use too much short forms), you pay for a child rate, 55bucks a month then your child learns it for minimum one year, THAT'S LIKE >$600 BUCKS!! ahh. ok. so im pretty much settled. BUT, definitely im getting a secondhand one though. or listen to senior R and get a NICE guy to share (nice so when it breaks, he doesnt complain but willingly fork up the sum). and then shall squeeze out pathetic time slot during the holidays to work. i know that's not gonna get me anywhere independent, but at least i know im not living off my parents too much. i think i just have to constantly remind myself of who has been financing my education and how they did that in the first place.

played songs after songs. and i found one that was very encouraging:
NO BOUNDARIES
Seconds hours so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait
Every moment last forever if you feel you've lost your way
What if your chances are already gone
Started believing that I could be wrong
But you give me one good reason to fight and never walk away
Coz here I am — still holding on!
Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe it's harder to believe you'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricane to get to that one thing
When you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you've almost gave up on your dreams
Then take it by the hand and show you that you can
You can go higher you can go deeper
There are no boundaries above and beneath you
Break every rule coz there's nothing between you and your dreams

ok. so much for the song. im crossing my fingers that i'll stick to this decision.(yeah i know what you're thinking so much for typing so much thought-to-be logic right..)
but dont you just agree that it's better that i talk to more people about it? then again, my mom probably say, don't join. focus on your studies(and lead a mugger life---ok. i added that myself) and my dad would give an ambiguous answer. im wondering what my encouraging brother and sister would say after i tell them about the cost.
(no need to tell me you feel like slapping me to make up my mind. i wanna do that too. but let's keep that to the post-exams)

i kinda apologise and not apologise for the camwhoring photos too. i thought my post would be way too wordy so isnt it entertaining to substitute in some random pictures i took over the semester. im always alone when taking them. oh. talk about loneliness man. my roomie ended her exams in a week. but it's just 2 papers anyway. good for her. i've got 6 for a span of 3 weeks and only 4 down so far. :/ AHHH. so now im alone.
>>sister calls<<
alright. so tonight is a vistor night i suppose? my sister's coming over with food, specifically her dinner...............(ok. i guess you dont wanna hear anymore miscellaneous details)
i'll miss my roomie until i see her next semester. meanwhile, over the december month, im in charge of all the cleaning, or my nose and health would just suffer like crap. grrr. so im gonna dear for her presence especially in the wee hours cause it's really different to open your eyes and see someone physically there rather than an empty bed. in hall, an empty bed is analogous to an empty heart. oh no, imagine i get a single room! im so gonna make friends ALL around.
actually, im already longing to meetup with sweet swan caramel glucose and jwong. (haha. the weird names i gave and i really remember them) my heart's so heavy at the thought of them. perhaps this just added on the the rojak feeling im having back once again.