swollen gum. swelling mind.
"Let me know that I've done wrong
When I've known this all along
I go around a time or two
Just to waste my time with you
Tell me all that you've thrown away
Find out games you don't wanna play
You are the only one that needs to know
I'll keep you my dirty little secret"
alright. so im currently stuck with a swollen gum due to an ever-erupting wisdom tooth.. it's like EVER-erupting cause i had the totally same sore feeling somewhere last year i think. DANGS. i should really get it removed. but my past horrifying experiences at the dentists just dreads me... all the driling, tugging and polishing.. plus the metal piece poking around your mouth to check for cavities---i think cavities resulted more likely from the poking and digging with the metal thingy rather than bacteria, bacteria merely intensify the situation.. oh wells. say im bullshitting if you want. haha. i just dont like visits to the dentists. AND doctors. the cold feeling of a metal plate pressed onto your chest cavity and it shifting around your sensitive areas are way too much for me. it's like just a mere step away from asking me to strip. O_O so back to the gum issue. it seems that there's actually a trend in catching a cold, having periods, cutting short hair, weight gaining.. and now. EVEN GUM SWELLING. haha. 3 staff including me at the waitressing place currently have swollen gums. so we all cant laugh too much. though we always do accidentally upon seeing the pathetic plight of fellow gum-sweller.
had driving lesson number i-lost-count today. and my engine still stalled. and my reaction with regards to changing gears is still slow. i still move off SLOW. i change lanes dangerously. i hardly check blindspots. i've got seriously bad estimations in distance and speed.. i tend to follow "my heart" and turn my own directions when my instructor says "turn ____", so it is occassionally a coincidence that i turn the direction that im told. see. im a dangerous driver though i drive at a mere 50km/h 80% of the time. the other 20% strictly belongs to 60km/h. see. how am i ever gonna drive on an expressway??
blossom officially quit her job today. abit sudden to the managers though. haha. while on one hand i was upset about her leaving, i felt like a released a trapped bird or some sort that had been restricted and contained.. congrats my dear. you made it (: the operations manager was pissed. but oh wells. that bastard doesnt even know the whole story before judging people. (hence the idiom DUAN ZHANG QU YI) the cafe manager looked speechless, or at least i know we hardly spoke a work throughout the 8 hours we worked together. MOST IMPORTANTLY, they never questioned why the sudden disappearance of a once committed staff, though part-time, you've still gotta admit the efforts she has put into the job. why would people want to leave? so hastily? it all boils down to one root problem. the management.
im pretty much in high spirits today though blossom and i failed to work for the last time together at mint. why so? i don't know. maybe cause of RP again hahaha. i dreamt of him last night actually. for i forgot what but i think it was a sweeeeeeeeeet dream. when i reached mint, the first thing RP said was, "hey, i dreamt of you last night you know?" HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHA. IMAGINE THE AMOUNT OF BLISS. i repeatedly asked him if he was joking, he said he really dreamt of me. WAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAAHAAHAHAHAAHAHAAHA. ok. i should stop it. it's getting irritating, like how i irritated bear bear (staff) on how i ate 2 free cones when he was working his ass off as work. i only got kinda upset when he continued to say he wet dream-ed. -----____-----"" ok. now i really wonder if it's a joke. (NOW YOU SEE HOW YELLOW THE JOKES ARE AT MY WORKPLACE. fortunately, im used to it. i even laugh whenever i heard the F word.) but now. while typing this post in the wee hours. im starting to sober. lightly. cause i know i wont get to work or even see him for most of the next week----i'd probably be thinking of him day and night once again.. and blanking out every now and then with his face popping in my mind. i'll just lose concentration. MANNNNNNNN.(then again, it's a good reason for my to calm down and consider the level of liking. and maybe even dilute the feeling im having).why?cause my schedule's been screwed up and left unconfirmed by the NUS architecture test and interview. plus plus. i got another part-time job just downstairs my house. which pays a pathetic 4 bucks an hour. WHY THE HELL I TOOK THE JOB? i guess im desperate for $$. plus all the travelling is too costly for me. then again, there's really a lot to venture out there. i'll put the job on probation first.
talking about job. i've given up on the flower arranger job. it just isnt me. im not all that demure to stand/sit whole day in a small space to trim and sell flowers. unless it's rafflesia you're talking about. HAHA. now i want my working-hours worth of pay, they're threatening it by saying i'll risk losing it if i dont go back to SGH to "help out" this last time. HMPH. ok. then i'll risk losing it. and risk my reputation amongst the aunties there, sneezing all day long from their hissings. and when that happens. FRIENDS DO ME A FAVOUR AND SMEAR THEIR REPUTATION. it's supposed to be a reputable florist gift shop.
and YES. I MADE IT IN TO NTU biomedial & TCM course!!! WAHAHAHHAA, i've got until like june to reply. so oh wells. i'll leave it first and still head on with architecture or perhaps industrial design. like HOW COOL IS THAT MAN.SHEESH. i've really gotta start pressuring myself to turn interest into passion. a mere liking for everything is not gonna take me far..
All the sleepless nights;
and the tears you cry
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and the tears you cry
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