ain as superficial as it seems.
firstly. thank u ALL for makin an effort to pamper me--whether it's a failed attempt a not. but most did. esp my besties. THANK U SO MUCH SO MUCH. OOOH. how am i supposed to sleep tonite with all the RAIN stuff...
went to swensens last nite to sorta celebrate my birthday cause no one was exactly free or in the mood to do it the next day,i.e. monday.. this is so pathetic. prob the most cold and lonely and disappointing birthday i've had so far. the to-us-considered-very-porsh-already restaurant at TYP wasnt exactly wat i wanted.. havin so much pizza and fatty food. OOH. so sinful. met huiyi-ng there btw. oh yes. THAT ICE-CREAM IS MY CAKE. sad. i just heard that i wont have any cake tonite when it is the actual day of my bday. *cries.
oh. tt wasnt my point actually. my point is.. im just equally fine to have a dinner at home and perhaps a lil nite walk at the park/sea. really. ok. maybe cause im just too silent. maybe im just too stubborn to speak up for myself... after the choosin of wardrobe--which my dad claimed tt THAT WAS MY BDAY PRESENT..oh HOW NICE.-- which actually i didnt have much of a choice. and the conversation that i overheard that discussed about the fate of our cats after movin hse... and the memories that soared were just too overwhelmin that my birthday didnt exactly matter. in fact to the extent that.. if i could exchange my birthday for my current hse and my current comfy lifestyle. im ever willin to do that. let me just repeat myself. I HATE CHANGES.
maybe u'll say.. "wat's so big about moving hse.. i've moved before.. and i dun feel as bad as u. dun be stupid and pls get over it..." and so on. but it's not just the hse im leaving. im leavin those souls and cherished memories behind. and after i move, i'll never get to see them. i have no idea why but my family seems to be treatin our cats like OBJECTS shelving them as they like. yes. i admit it is VERY EXTREMELY irritatin to have cat peeing on ur bags and stuff. but doesnt that give u a reason to tidy up ur stuff more often? no. i refuse to give any of them for adoption. the thought of them being locked in metal cages and awaitin death when no one will adopt them is just too unbearable. way too much. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. if u dun like cats, im fine. but it u mistreat them and treat them as 2nd-class living things. GO TO HELL.
ok. off with my complain now.
the day started RAINin really heavily in the wee hours. and i was awoken by my dad's usual trotterin steps who was frantically tryin to shut all the windows. me? sleepin. i couldnt be bothered. i just refuse to wake up until i feel the rain on me. then a tot came to me. "hey. happy birthday mrs RAIN. here's ur hubby visitin u!" ok.. that really made up for the rounds that i didnt get to run in the morning. happy(: ok.. sally was supposed to run too. but in e end only caramel appeared. and she was the first to gimme my presents!! RAIN POSTER PLUS RAIN STICKER. okayyys. i couldnt be happier (:
oh. come to think of it.. cupcake was the first to sms me today.. and the msg content was " hey everyone.. i changed my hp number..." -_-"' like wth is going on!! and congrats to baobei-er.. she was the officially first to sms mee happy birthday. oh wells. then cupcake again then muffin then jane.. awww. and sweet smsed me askin YS ARE U RUNNIN TODAY. -_-" im sure i run under the rain. thanks sally and caiyun and someone who asked my to guess who he/she is again...... ok. i just received my secondary sch friend's sms. and it's only one. *sobbers.
oh my tian. the next paragraph is also a thank u speech.. lol.
thank u:
sweet for ur envelope of letter,poems,songs,err..magnets. LOL. swan for ur hardwork and i can seriously SEE HARDWORK in ur artwork. like HOMTIAN. it's really AWESOME. baobei-er.. for gettin rainer's signature. MUAHAHAHAHAH. and her handmade bday card. SO SWEEEEETENIN.
let just hope that rainer wont freak out IF he sees this. LOL.
and baby's BIG HEAVY book of RAIN's pics. WOOTS. haha. no baby. i wont tear them away. (: honey for ur paragraphs of heartfelt words. hotlips, glucose, swan, sweet for the PURRRRfect white cap. LOL. "why velco de?! LOL." and the err. ahlian ear studs. and sweet for designin on behalf of the class & 3I for the GORGEOUS pillow. NO ONE IS ALLOWED TO TOUCH IT WITHOUT MY PERMISSION.
sadly,it's also today.. that the pian-xin-ness of pple became VERY prominent. so sad. ):
promo results was.. so-so. shall not mention it cause it hasnt affect me much. only suszie.. sorry suzie.. i really cannot help it but to say SHUTUP when u blabbered sayin U HAD A NIGHTMARE GETTIN B FOR CHEM. yea. try a D. but anyway. u'r still a nice person to study with. ur constant muggin and whining keeps me reminded that exams ARE NOT OVER.
yepps. that's all for my birthday. so weird. no outing. NO ONE DATED ME. haha. it's ok. that's why i stayed back in sch till about 4pm just so i wont reach home so early and/or that i can think of where to head to shop with only 5 dollars in my wallet. hmm. how nice. no plans. no money. wat a HAPPY birthday.
ohhhh. dun get me misunderstood. i just hate the feelin of being alone at the moment. i cant help but emo and tear. please dun leave me alone durin this fragile period. please.
happy birthday CUPCAKE. and i hope u'r havin a great time yingshi. *ponders.
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