还记得你喜欢咬著我的手
然后给我你嘴里的球
要我陪你玩丢丢

你喜欢我摸摸你的小耳朵
窝在我的身旁
没有烦忧
在梦里遨游

好狗狗 好狗狗
谢谢你陪妹妹这么久
你并没有离开我
是搬到天堂生活

薇妮你要记得我
你不要走丢
快快找到天使
在天堂找到幸福

薇妮不要忘了我
还有亲爱的阿姨叔叔和你的朋友
你永远活在记忆中



两年了.我们那时,一起度过的十五年里,的喜怒哀乐,我都记得.非常抱歉,我无法陪你上天堂.因为我胆小,没有勇气克服死亡.我真的好想你.不哭. 那,对不起,我还是学不会..

Monday, October 22, 2007

firstly. thank u ALL for makin an effort to pamper me--whether it's a failed attempt a not. but most did. esp my besties. THANK U SO MUCH SO MUCH. OOOH. how am i supposed to sleep tonite with all the RAIN stuff...

went to swensens last nite to sorta celebrate my birthday cause no one was exactly free or in the mood to do it the next day,i.e. monday.. this is so pathetic. prob the most cold and lonely and disappointing birthday i've had so far. the to-us-considered-very-porsh-already restaurant at TYP wasnt exactly wat i wanted.. havin so much pizza and fatty food. OOH. so sinful. met huiyi-ng there btw. oh yes. THAT ICE-CREAM IS MY CAKE. sad. i just heard that i wont have any cake tonite when it is the actual day of my bday. *cries.



oh. tt wasnt my point actually. my point is.. im just equally fine to have a dinner at home and perhaps a lil nite walk at the park/sea. really. ok. maybe cause im just too silent. maybe im just too stubborn to speak up for myself... after the choosin of wardrobe--which my dad claimed tt THAT WAS MY BDAY PRESENT..oh HOW NICE.-- which actually i didnt have much of a choice. and the conversation that i overheard that discussed about the fate of our cats after movin hse... and the memories that soared were just too overwhelmin that my birthday didnt exactly matter. in fact to the extent that.. if i could exchange my birthday for my current hse and my current comfy lifestyle. im ever willin to do that. let me just repeat myself. I HATE CHANGES.

maybe u'll say.. "wat's so big about moving hse.. i've moved before.. and i dun feel as bad as u. dun be stupid and pls get over it..." and so on. but it's not just the hse im leaving. im leavin those souls and cherished memories behind. and after i move, i'll never get to see them. i have no idea why but my family seems to be treatin our cats like OBJECTS shelving them as they like. yes. i admit it is VERY EXTREMELY irritatin to have cat peeing on ur bags and stuff. but doesnt that give u a reason to tidy up ur stuff more often? no. i refuse to give any of them for adoption. the thought of them being locked in metal cages and awaitin death when no one will adopt them is just too unbearable. way too much. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. if u dun like cats, im fine. but it u mistreat them and treat them as 2nd-class living things. GO TO HELL.

ok. off with my complain now.

the day started RAINin really heavily in the wee hours. and i was awoken by my dad's usual trotterin steps who was frantically tryin to shut all the windows. me? sleepin. i couldnt be bothered. i just refuse to wake up until i feel the rain on me. then a tot came to me. "hey. happy birthday mrs RAIN. here's ur hubby visitin u!" ok.. that really made up for the rounds that i didnt get to run in the morning. happy(: ok.. sally was supposed to run too. but in e end only caramel appeared. and she was the first to gimme my presents!! RAIN POSTER PLUS RAIN STICKER. okayyys. i couldnt be happier (:

oh. come to think of it.. cupcake was the first to sms me today.. and the msg content was " hey everyone.. i changed my hp number..." -_-"' like wth is going on!! and congrats to baobei-er.. she was the officially first to sms mee happy birthday. oh wells. then cupcake again then muffin then jane.. awww. and sweet smsed me askin YS ARE U RUNNIN TODAY. -_-" im sure i run under the rain. thanks sally and caiyun and someone who asked my to guess who he/she is again...... ok. i just received my secondary sch friend's sms. and it's only one. *sobbers.

oh my tian. the next paragraph is also a thank u speech.. lol.

thank u:
sweet for ur envelope of letter,poems,songs,err..magnets. LOL. swan for ur hardwork and i can seriously SEE HARDWORK in ur artwork. like HOMTIAN. it's really AWESOME. baobei-er.. for gettin rainer's signature. MUAHAHAHAHAH. and her handmade bday card. SO SWEEEEETENIN.



let just hope that rainer wont freak out IF he sees this. LOL.

and baby's BIG HEAVY book of RAIN's pics. WOOTS. haha. no baby. i wont tear them away. (: honey for ur paragraphs of heartfelt words. hotlips, glucose, swan, sweet for the PURRRRfect white cap. LOL. "why velco de?! LOL." and the err. ahlian ear studs. and sweet for designin on behalf of the class & 3I for the GORGEOUS pillow. NO ONE IS ALLOWED TO TOUCH IT WITHOUT MY PERMISSION.



sadly,it's also today.. that the pian-xin-ness of pple became VERY prominent. so sad. ):

promo results was.. so-so. shall not mention it cause it hasnt affect me much. only suszie.. sorry suzie.. i really cannot help it but to say SHUTUP when u blabbered sayin U HAD A NIGHTMARE GETTIN B FOR CHEM. yea. try a D. but anyway. u'r still a nice person to study with. ur constant muggin and whining keeps me reminded that exams ARE NOT OVER.

yepps. that's all for my birthday. so weird. no outing. NO ONE DATED ME. haha. it's ok. that's why i stayed back in sch till about 4pm just so i wont reach home so early and/or that i can think of where to head to shop with only 5 dollars in my wallet. hmm. how nice. no plans. no money. wat a HAPPY birthday.
ohhhh. dun get me misunderstood. i just hate the feelin of being alone at the moment. i cant help but emo and tear. please dun leave me alone durin this fragile period. please.

happy birthday CUPCAKE. and i hope u'r havin a great time yingshi. *ponders.

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

oh my tian. sooo many things happened the past 2 days.. AND today. bloody hell badbad.---- im tryin to reduce vulgarities.. the reason behind this will b explain in the later part of this entry. LOL. this so sounds like an essay. WOW. AND SHIT U MOSQUITOES. how dare u bite and suck my blood when im tryin to type out a NICE NICE entry?!

ok. anw. here goes:

15/10:

• was supposed to meet swan sweet hotlips glucose at harborfront at 10.30---SWEET U TOLD ME IT WAS 10.30AM. so i wasnt LATE.
• heard someone callin me and saw a yellow toothpick--i insist. wearin a barely visible fbt walkin out of the mrt gate. LOL. damn skinny. sheesh. WHEN CAN I KICK OFF THE VULGARITIES. it's like my trademark now. ARGGH.
• tt yellow toothpick wanted to eat Macs at vivo. lol. of all food choices SHE WANTS TO EAT MACS. sians. in the end she settled at toastbox where sweet n glucose r... err. sweet attempted to tell me where she was on e phone before i saw her.. but i kinda heard it as "vivo block 1" very -_-" right. haha.
• ms hotlips woke up only at 10AM NICE. and she reached at abt 11.30am.. only to realise tt she was not "reminded"---im sure this kinda thing need to remind..-- to wear slippers and bring extra clothin.. yea. wat do u expect.. afterall. she was the one who claimed TREES DUN BREATH AT NIGHT. *sighs DEEPLY.
• saw eng along the way and i kinda got a shock. like WTH.ooops. i mean. WAT THE HEAVEN. ahhh.. apparently he was ALSO headin for siloso beach. and his hair was okay then.. until today.. errr. no comments.
• glucose and hotlips are noobs mann. they tot sentosa was part of malaysia and tt sentosa was really bulidin a tomb---cause they dug huge deep pits. wat else.
• we got off at some beach where swan insisted it IS siloso beach... but i still dun think it is.. could it be the TANJONG KATONG BEACH tt swan CLAIMED? lol.
• glucose wore a bikini but wrapped herself in sleeves and shorts.. like WAT'S THE POINT. might as well wear ur normal undergarnents RIGHT. me n sweet went ahead with the swim--and er.. THE WATER IS SUPER SALTY!!! i couldnt help but keep makin weird noises. *blush. swan n hotlips who initially refused to go into the water were dragged and pushed into the sea by us. HAHA. the same fate also did landed on glucose. HAHA. WHO DIDNT HAVE EXTRA SHORTS. haha.
• saw xiaohan ltr. and abit erm. embarrased. like WHY IS SO MANY PPLE APPEARIN AT THE BEACH TT DAY?!. tried to play abit of vb.. but it SOON like 5min started pourin... DAMN heavily.
• the toilet was sibei crowded can.. i wont call those pple ah lians.. just... act lians. (: so to save time.. me n sweet shared the same cubicle while swan tried to dry herself with the handBLOWER outside. accordin to her.. it was NOT at all blowing hot air. haha. so she only felt colder each time she blowed her clothes. LOL.
• the experience of being in the same cubicle [err. we wore swimsuits to bath] was pretty. AWKWARD. esp when u had to remove sands from some unmentionable areas. LOL.
• came out to see yiwei ltr who suddenly asked abt my sister. haha. so random. but it was really pleasant to see ur sec sch friends.
• went back to vivo to eat wat?! carl's junior if i didnt spell wrongly.. i was sibei full... haha. but the fries were like appealin to me to eat them up still. haha. so YEA. sweet n hotlips also seemed to b deperated for someone to finish their drinks for them. HAHA. sry sweet. i drank alot from hotlips--WHO WASTED ALOT OF FOOD. WAT'S THE POINT OF DOIN THE PROJECT ON BONO AND AFRICA THEN? HMMMM?!
• ltr bidded byebye to the grp when they went to watch some movie.. HAAh. was supposed to go home str8 after tt but sth held me back and i decided to stroll ard vivo. and wow. i see another sec sch friend RAT!! haha. WOW.
• my sis ltr called to join me at vivo to buy snacks home to reduce the fumes in our mom. heheh. cause sis went for some chalet and i went to sentosa. wells. i think it's normal for her to b jealous and upset rite?
• UNFORTUNATELY. i cant rmb wat else happened after tt. all i knew was tt i was going runnin in the mornin the next day EARLY mornin i mean. with sweet n caramel. hmmm. sally came along too.

16/10:

• mrs rain's believe it or not--- i took 3.30min to run each round of the track. sheeesh. i fail my napfa next yr liao la.
• perhaps of the increase intensity of movement durin pe.. i had quite a bad muscle ache on my thighS the next day. *sighs.
• oh. haha. gave lindan a photocumletter too. and SOMEONE forgot the date. BADBAD. haha.
• i really cant help it but to repeat that I AGREE MEL=MONSTER. why? his hp was off when i was frantically tryin to contact him ): alrite.
• went for the stupid op workshop only to find my name missin.. and shuhan's name on it. like duh. i immediately left to room to find shuhan and winston before goin for bio lecture---i initially tot it was econs lecture so i was pretty sad coz tt= no rainer. haha. jkjk.
• confirmed with steff after gettin his no. from mel. arrrgh. went back to the class feelin maluated. but the rest of the time was ok. in fact fun. i got to noe the head of the drama grp of the chinese society.. and another few more PRC friends. and i also got to see the "charmin" and adorable side of winston. AWWWWWWWW. ok. i hereby announce tt winston is a NICE guy. just.. abit. weird. HAHA. YEAH. omg. i cant help thinkin... and thinkin.. LOL
• at e end of the day.. all of us were videoed when we were presentin and made to observe ourselves.. so here's wat i tot abt myself.. SERIOUS LIKE A DEBATOR. SHIFTED MY WEIGHT FROM SIDE TO SIDE TO MUCH. SPOKE TOO FAST. ROLLED EYES. SMILED AT MYSELF--am i crazy?! AUDIBLE. ABIT TOO EXPRESSIVE AKA DRAMAQUEEEEN. lol. and here's wat the tchr comment... I TOT UR ROLLIN OF THE EYE WAS FARNIE. -_-" err. like im sure i can do tt in front of the accessors. hahah. but still. i think i like tt tchr. she's so professional and yet warm and friendly. as shuhan.. haha. normal. winston was still swinging his arms back and forth slightly as usual.. but tt's COOL--quotes the tchr. LOL. but isnt tt wat defines who he is? GOGOWINSTON!!

17/10:

• got to sch at 7am coz my dad insisted tt someone drove me to sch. -_-" shauna was there as usual... so early.. and readin something. NO. SHE WAS DOIN MATH QNS. and our ms goh had alrdy done 15 qns out of the 18 in the tutorial. haha. i feel like floatin to goh and strangling her gracefully then and NOW. esp when she sms-ed me so enthusiatically abt LD trg tmr. ARRRGH. oh anw.. caramel stoned while i rocked in the amphi. haha.
• and idiot eng!!! im not a auntie!!! ok. i admit i dress like one and my bro is sad abt it coz it only emphasizes his age--how NICE..-- but BUT. U STILL SHOULD NOT CALL ME THAT!!
• the pressure from the promise to tutor my junior is gettin on my nerves. but i feel so guilty if i dun help her. but then agn. a o level scorer does not always make a good tutor.. just like a cat is not always born to be tamed!--wow. i like my metaphor. LOL. LOVE IT. plus pw op comin and cca trgs catchin up.. im busy to the core. and my schedules are so packed that my pw mates suggested i pon sch. err. no way. i've never done tt before NEVER. and i'll never attempt tt. u wont want to see my tears in sch.
• 3 consecutive 1.5hr of lectures is lethal. lucky tt my lameness was the best remedy.. haha. with a GG and a XX sittin beside me. LOL.
• while the presence of rainer sittin somewhere in the front helped to keep my attention on the screen.. and announcement that kbox was chargin only $5 up till tmr was even more awakening. WOOTS.
• caramel went home knwin we're going to kbox which is deemed a place to sing only chi songs. but. NONO. i found english songs there!! and there'r korean and jap n canto songs too!!! WOOTS. next time can pull sally caramel mel and karen there. WAHAHHA. TERRORISE THEM!!
• arrived at TPY with sweet n swan but the guilt-strickened sweet decided to return to sch for cca. leavin me n swan.. to sing duets. -_-" wanted to join baby at AMK but ended up pangsayin them due to the awkwardness to sing with her friends and the potential to mike-hogg later. lol.
• so me and swan sang from 1.40pm all the way till 6.55pm HAHA. u go count how long tt was.. but anw.. it was long enuf to cause swan to lose her voice. haha. wells. as usual.. pple were starin thru the glass door everytime we sung... errr. haha. prob cause WE SUNG TOO WELL. rite swan? MUAHAHHAHA.
• i shall blame it on the blurness of the staff there instd of the rigid service system. the promotion stated tt we can sing all we want till 7pm but a staff came in to ask for payment at 4.10pm. like errr.. abit early... then another staff came in to chase us out at 4.25pm.. how irritating. we continued to sing as the staff reappeared. i reasoned with him and the guys just nodded his head and closed the door.. me n swan could only stare and continue to sing.. the cycle repeats for the next 1 hr.. so.. haha.. in the end.. our DETERMINATION AND PERSEVERENCE to sing had enabled us to stay on. WOOTS.
• dumb or wat... me n swan attempted many deadly songs tt either had really high notes.. or of rock-singing style tt really hurts the throat or sibei pro angmoh songs.. haha. a very good and familiar eg is whitney houston's i will always love u haha. the both of us really cannot take it.. so the song turned out pretty bad. but AT LEAST we tried. muahahha.
• yea. unfortunately i cant kbox agn tmr. SAD. LIONDANCETRAINING LA. and tt tutorin of my junior for FREE OF CHARGE some more. sheeesh. i should b willin rite. ok. I AM VERY HONOURED TO HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO TUTOR SOMEONE.

yepps. runnin tmr agn. and oh yesyes. I WANNA STRANGLE AND HANG MUFFIN UPSIDE DOWN for being so stupid and stubborn to attend sch despite runnin a fever. seriously. *angry*

Sunday, October 14, 2007

me says:
do u understand

me says:
over
jane says:
yeah i do
jane says:
over
me says:
good
me says:
over
jane says:
hi appearing offline
me says:
"over"
me says:
oh ok.
me says:
over
jane says:
-.-
jane says:
over
jane says:
we shld stop this over
jane says:
roger?
me says:
yea.
me says:
benjamin
me says:
haha. jkjk.
me says:
roger
jane says:
i knew this was coming

ok. i realised this SMALL portion has taken up a HUGE PROPORTION of space. oh manns. oh wells. hahahhahahah. damn hilarious. and at this point of time.. baby told me sth damn farnie.

baby says:
u noe. when i read ur msn nick to myself
it soudns like u'r koping my chi name?
im [baby chi name]. im waiting. xD
last time i used to get teased bout it xD

ok. it may not exactly sound farnie here. but if u noe who the person is. go ahead. LAUGH YOUR ASS OFF. sheesh. i sound sibei vulgar here. must b coz of weeeenie and sally. idiot. IM NOT AT ALL BLOODY HELL INTERESTED IN JANE'S BOD LA. im just statin a fact that karen has nice bod. just like WHY i mentioned jane has a nice _____---shan mention it this time *emo pose. AND SALLY'S DAOING ME ON MSN NOWWWWW!!!!!!!!. sheesh. i think baby's slogon in her blog suits me very well. "musings of a teenage girl" LOL. aye. im still YOUNG ok. im younger than most of my readers. LOL.

ok. let me complain first. mel sent me this bloody shit sms which i wished had been sent to my junk sms-es---if it ever exist. in fact i strongly reccomend nokia to create one.... like.. wth.

" blah blah and [who else but me] have been selected to attend an oral comm wkshp to help them with their OP tues 9am-4.30pm at blah. COMPULSORY.... blahs on" AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. *screams. THAT MEANS I WONT GET TO SEE RAINER. OH SHIT. ok... wait. i should rank this as a second reason since rainer is NOT my eyecandy and im just an aspiring-fan-to-be of him. shhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeesssssssssssh. and i will also not get to see my class for the entire day except PE... and and. OH MY TIAN. i'll miss soooooooo much bloody lectures. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. and that also means i did really bad for op dry run. darn. i wish it there ever were to b another OP.. MAY IT BE IN CHINESE. i assure u i'll fair--which fare/fair issit?!--- better. seriously.

WARNING. THE ENTRIES ARE GETTIN INCREASINLY CHILDISH AND DUMB. DUN ASK WHY. IM SEEKING ANSWERS MYSELF TOO.

went to east coast ytd and today coz my sis went to the chalet there... WITHOUT US. *sobbers. AND SHE BLOODY HELL WENT WEIGHTBOARDIN W/O MEEEEEEE! she went w/o me leh!! oh my tian. she went w/o me!!! WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH. ok. relax. chill chill mrs rain. ur bro n sis said today they'll bring u there next week.. i.e. 21st oct WHICH IS ONE DAY BEFORE UR BIRTHDAY. yes. tt means u'r either gonna get chao dao on ur bday.. or that u'll come to sch in blue n black----i can predict these by examinin my sister... yea. but. for fun. WHY NOT.

went islandwide of singapore today... haha. first to amk for breakfast then to sembawang where my dad's office is... then to bukit panjang where my ahmah lives.. found so antique there which my dad tot he could pass to the musuem... because the antique was REALLY an OBSTRUCTION and bulky... my dad drove all the way back to sembawang before going to east coast park to get my sis. HAHA. SEE HOW FAR IS THAT. the journey hasnt ended. then we went to bedok for lunch and to bishan for my aunt and back to bukit panjang AGAIN.then finally home. not long later.. yishun for dinner. *phews. i rather burn at ECP actually. HAHA. oh. come to think of ECP. it was darn irritatin.. i had to hold on to the call of nature and walked at least 300metres before i found the bloody toilet. OH MANS. *complains complains complains....... OH. in the meantime.. i mean from morning to late noon... sweet sms-es were damn responsive.. like she replies 3hrs after my first sms.. then wait. i dun think she replied the second one until i CALLED HER LIKE 5 HOURS LATER. -_-"""""""

bored in e car.. i came up with this bday wishlist. ok. make it WANT. i shall exclude those intimate ones. LOL. sportshoes swimsuit retroshades cap ahlianearstuds getbraces blingblingdogtagwithimprintofthewordRAIN--i've been wantin that since sec3..LOL but it's seriously just a want.. turnintoanotherperson--as in.. a change of outfit n look.. oh great. nth else. i wanna go kbox rollerbladin cyclin weightboardin stayoveratfriend'shse korea clubbingi.e.goinghomeinthemorning rain'snextkoreaconcert dateagirl---OK. JUST JOKIN. a guy then. but i rather a gal sounds more interestin. WAHAHHAHA. but wait. is a date even necessary? for a bdaywish? CANCEL THAT.

and oh my tian. GOH. how am i supposed to yay when u tell me there's ld trg on thurs... i was supposed to tutor someone. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH. AND U EAT MORE. MUFFIN TOO. SWAN!!! U ALSO. GLUCOSE U ALSO!!!!!!!! and erm. the guys too. -_-" my bro looked at my class photo and said. wat have got into the guys that they turned into scrawny...---he couldnt find a word. yepps. and im exciting for sentosa outing tmr!!!!!!! YEAH. but like.. there's still at 7.40am the followin day.. and we'r like runnnin in the mornin somemore. OH MY GOD. ok. sleeeep now. dream of rain~~. oh yes. er herm. honey's bday's comin. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANDAN.

All the sleepless nights;
and the tears you cry
at 11:50 PM

Thursday, October 11, 2007

ohmytian. i shouldnt be sayin this. or in fact announcin at all... but after wat happened in the LT today. i tot i should say LOL. ok wth m i bloody hell talkin abt?

the day started off REALLY tiring.. cause of bloody bullshit cowdung idiotic OPPW... stayed up till 2am before proceedin to sleep... while baby stayed on till 4.30am WAAH pro pro. iLOVE UBABY! woke up 30min late but still managed to catch the bus. WOW. AMAZING. -----oh pls pardon me if i find humour in places that no one in the world, not even maniacs can understand cause im kinda 50% happy and 50% tired now. WAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAhahaha...hahahah...hehhhh.......................

SO, reachin sch 20 min before sch starts.. i heeded glucose's source that rainer sits at the windy tables every morning. damns. shouldnt have believed that bimbo. haha. rmb bimbo's are blind except for money..---err. but glucose exception la instd of $ her's result. cause she's bloody hell smart. DUN LIKE DUN CARE. complaint to all the gal friends....cause i decided not to complain to og mates such as sianghuat or eng..... I WHERE GOT HARDCORE OVER rainer lor. pls. im just a lil apiring-fan-to-be of his. yea. was kinda disappointed but not to the extent of being despondent. lol. shit why m i laughin at myself. oh wells. nvm.

like a normal little obedient student, i entered the LT with sweet caramel glucose etc and just find a place to sit down... and oooh. fizzah was sittin diagonally across.. haha. then i started diggin my bag for stuff before hissing of my name came from the guys behind... OHHH. rainer was LATE. and he's comin up. sheesh u noe how malu-atin it is FOR ME if he hears wat the guys and sayin and that he was abt to sit in front of the person who is idolising him? i dun care. i wanna NAME the guys one by one her. BAD SALLY BAD MEL BAD WEENIE BAD JANE BAD KAREN MOK BAD WAIHAN[who came up to poke fun at me somemore] bad.. alrite then.. i shall not penalise winston and yh.. pls. they so kwai can. HAHA. ok not tt kwai la actually. oh. BAD SWEET BAD CARAMEL BAD HONEY BAD GLUCOSE BAD SWAN BAD BABYetc for laughin at me non-stop. I DUN LIKE U. eeeeeeyerrr. pple damn paiseh laaaaaaaaah!.. sheesh i sound so BIMBO-tic like SOMEONE now. haha.

next was a tormentin 7hr[accordin to caramel] pw... oh mannn. everyone's mentally exhausted. but i tot the op dryrun really helps. AND YEA. STEFF SAID I WAS WARM. WARMMMMMMMMMMMM. wahahahhaha. but shit i stammmered waaaaaaaaaaaaaay too much. no good no good.

suddenly. at this point of time. i wanna scold and spam abt mel. last nite.. he asked me to delete my friendster comment. then he say nvm.. so i asked if it was a hint for me to delete it and so on.. ---ok. i admit not v interestin. today when everyone was leavin the pw class for lunch.. 2 lifts came together. so one lift was more crowded then the other... the less crowded one havin only mel in it---sheesh this sounds like a math qns hahah. so anw.. OF COURSE being a rational consumer.. i choose the less crowded one for my personal well-being in the pursuit of self-interest. HAHA. application of economics. woooo. why can't i just do the same for exams?! BLOODY HELL. oh. so anw.. the moment i stepped in.. pauline n kb came along. sayin that " hey u should b on the other side.. this is a guy's lift.." before i knew it.. jane weenie winston and gang all came in WTH. i tot tt was bad enough until the lift stopped halfway and entered another 2 guys. ARRGH. tt feelin was damn weird. damn.... UNWANTED. in e canteen i started doin lame things which included tryin to "boo!" mel from the back... oh well. the response was expected sians.

during lunch saw rainer leaving sch woots. SECOND TIME OF THE DAY. wa liaows. i feel so... warm~~. then talked abt how hot karen mok's bod was. OH YES. im supposed to blogg abt it. i'll try to b more discreet so that karen wont b hurt k. PLS ALLOW ME TO EMPHASIZE THAT KAREN MOK IS A VERY. NO. EXTREMELY NICE PERSON. ok. now i can talk cock abt him with less guilt. HAHAHAHHAHAH. MUAHAHAHHAHAHA. oh.. it started off when i saw this muscular person.. ok.. or at least the upper body.. in this tight fittin black long sleeve softball attire. i was mesmerised. ok. sounds wrong. but do i give a damn. im clean. CLEAN. just bathed. (: ok. tt was somehow irrelevant again. yea... so there goes. i think karen has HOT BODY[upper] and he should b PROUD of it. YEAH. no need to diet la. aiyo. NICE NICE. dun b scrawny. YEAH *twist*

went to art room after sch to spot muffin's work of art after school with bimbo gang and caramel.. and we finally understood why art pple dun sleep---cause they need A WHOLESOME LOT OF TIME to do ONE piece of work--and dun eat---cause they can't afford the TIME and the opportunity cost of dirtyin their work.... *sighs. MUFFIN. PLS EAT MORE. u look like ur wired artwork. seriously. *sighs. this applies to GOH TIAN too.. i understand ur sis is skinnier.. but if u wanna compare.. compare with ME. then u'll eat more. YEA? MUAAHAHA.

later spent time having sibei heart-to-lung-and-back-to-heart talk with sweet n caramel since we didnt wan to go home... and we were awfully tired. OH YES. i must tell u abt the toilet incident near our lockers.. i was like damn high when pw ended and jumped around and shouting.. sweet went in first then after that i entered.. but i decided to shout into the toilet as i push the door open.. WHO KNEW A BIMBO WAS ABOUT THE OPEN THE DOOR TOO. haha. so she screamed along with me.. u should have seen her expression. damn bloody farnie. alrite to compensate for the fun u lost. i shall attempt to describe it here. for that moment, sweet froze. her arms half hangin from her waist, her fingers as if cramped, her mouth widened to abt 3/4 e size of jane, nostrils expanded, pupils dilated etc. AIN IT FUN.

later after wavering ard the school for a further 15min or so... i finally decide not to go home.. haha. i went j8 to print photos... oh mann. im such a boon at such stuff.. it was only after i chose the pics that i realise that that BLOODY GREEN MACHINE IS NOT INSTANT. wth. so gotta go all the way back to j8 to collect those pic. how irritatin. but that is NOT a pull-factor to go for soccer kickabouts tmr morning. i need my sleep.. though i also need my fitness.. sians. all my muscles have been converted to fats.. if only the converter in our hp had fat converters---ok. nvm if u dun get this. just smile to urself at the mirror and think of my laogong RAIN. OH YES. IT RAINED TODAY. damn shuang. WOOOTS. rainer+ rain. one of the happiest times of my life.

WARNING THE FOLLOWIN PARAGRAPH WOULD B DESCRIBE OF A GAL WHO FINDS HERSELF TURNING INTO A BIMBO:
after orderin the photos T_T... which i was actually intendin to get it printed on the spot.... i floated ard j8 in search for a WANT. yes a WANT. oh my tian. wth is happenin man.. i didnt noe there's a deadline to tell wat kinda present u want for ur birthday--the deadline is this sunday... actually i have alot of things i wanna buy.. but for my brother.. OLD brother to get for me is kinda weird.. like i want a NICE cap.. really really nice cap[he doesnt noe my pref] or sport shoe[he dunno my size] or a dress[nice try. a brother buyin dress for his sis] a...._ _ _ *hint: my pw task lol [im sure he can buy], or a nice necklace for outin/dinner or a nice pair of dangling earings, a nice plain metal ring to wear on the thumb[but i think no gals does tt YET. yes i'll b e groundbreaker] oh wells.. i guess i'll still continue to walkard.. and let me see wat i do NOT want[err. this is NOT a hint to anyone to get me present.. k fine. it's to my bro & sis in case they see this blog though i noe they'll never c this part of e msg cause i realised my blog as well as this sentence is way too long and needs alot of patience to finish readin... i'll b content as long as u rmb me] no wallet,no ipod, no mp3, no stuff toys--my dad throws/gives them away WITHOUT my permission, no...things that u noe i wont touch it anymore after some time. sheesh. this is damn vague. wateva shall talk about this other time damn sianoh. actually i just have a simple wish that ironically cannot happen. i just wanna stay and not move hse.....hence.. i guess i can only think superficially..i noe. i wanna go clubbing. hhaa. which is like... wait long long. esp with my mom. unless.......

kk.. pple r waitin for my entry.. shall continue to whine and think abt wat to get....

Tuesday, October 9, 2007

i think im feelin better. in fact I SHOULD RIGHT. haha. thank u sweet swam caramel baby sally etc. for concern. OOPS. haha. sorry i made yall errr. awkward once again. trust me. there's more to come. and that wasnt even PMS! i shall call tt as acute prolonged pms--appms. LOL. ok. my crabbies are comin out again.



open house's over on the 5th oct fri. and my darlin "sister" came over and gave my a flower. WOOTS. i feel crushed. LOL. jkjk. oh yes. THIS IS DARN IMPT. i took pictures of my idol rainer!! woots. 6 in total!!--ok fine. actually 8... but those 2 was really blur. and one of them was like kanna blocked JUST nice but some freaking gal who walked past la!! wait.. let me load the pic.. oops. HAHA. i realised i deleted it. THAT GAL IS DAMN LUCKY... but i'll b kind and share 1 pic here. LOL oh mann.. if rainer happens to read this.. PLS. i am NOT stalkin u. ok fine. i m. *sighs. dun worry though. i wont stalk u to ur hse or ur class or the gents. hahahaha.


my day didnt just end with open hse.. went for some cip meetin at YMCA and tt.. oh my tian.. really really made me dead. ok. while goh, cy, muffin etc were all laughing their ass off, esp tt yingkiao... i guessed they were already in heaven--way dead. the bus waiting was darn long.. waited for like 10min before deciding to go PS to get my fav mos coffee milkshake. i guess it really really.. wait. it's not guess liao la. it WAS REALLY NOT MY DAY. i spent a total of 3hrs tt day waiting for buses.. JUST BUSES MINE U. then the queue at mos was damn bloody long with only one counter opened with one inefficient cashier. at first i tot it wud b worth it to scarifice my time for just that satisfyin cup of milkshake... BUT BLOODY BULLSHIT IDIOT GO-AND-DIE. the milkshake tasted damn weird, though i still did finish it in the end. heh. met swam somehow again outside ps.. coz she was waitin for hotlips to end her translation lessons. errr. SHE CANNOT TRANSLATE MEH?!


cip the next day [6/10] at pasir ris at some spastic centre for some celebral palsy thingy--my 2nd time. as usual.. one of the cilent is as picky and lust as ever. *sian. ok. not tt lust.. but lust enough to chose the pretty girls and shoo away those he've met, esp the guys. haha pooor waihan. poor me too. he like shoo-ed me off immediately after i told him i came before?! WTH. oh well. fine. pamper them once in a while then. FINE. but seriously.. i dun think tt get this kinda treatment often... given their reduced IQ and their disabilities... we should at least TRY to accept them. at least i finally got to interact with a nice gal... jokin with her.. and talkin abt erm. HAHA. of all things BRAS. AND SHE TOT THEM GUYS WEAR BRAS TOO!--she assumed singlet=bra. sheesh. i seriously gotta educate her abt tt.. and yes. achieve my PW task. LOL. mary phelps jacob.. mary jacob phelps.. phelps jacob mary... WTH. it's makin me crazy. quotes kb:" frankly i'm beginning to dislike bras"


went to sch on SUNDAY [7/10]. CAN U BELIEVE IT. WE WENT TO SCHOOL ON SUNDAY AND DID NOT ON MONDAY!!!!!!!!. wasnt exactly productive coz baby's comp kept hanging.. and mr kb was like patting it and treatin it like a gal throwin tantrum. WTH. went home to chiong the pamphlet design *sobs.. but like no one knew. WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.... ok they should noe by now. heh. oh yes. i chionged till 3.30am [i.e. morning of 8/10] can.. and woke up at 3.30pm.. OOPs. my mom murdered me. but i tot it was worthwhile.. dreamt of a date with RAIN. woots. OH MY TIAN.. IM FA-ING HUACHI--err caramel.. tt meant.. going gaga. and dreamin of a class reunion with my stnicks and aj classmates outside my secondary school science lab?! oh wells. i guess it's e result of accidentally watchin another form of porn after i searched for GUINESS WORLD RECORD FOR BIGGEST B_ _ BS. haha. oh wells.


went sch this morning at 8.30 am for kickabouts.. hmmm. waaah damn fun. like 10 over pple went. sian. the game was damn tiring.. and im now red from the sunning. sheeesh. rushed for pw meetin later.. which later turn out to be an ... quotes turkey: " unproductive 5 hours".. OOOH wait. i see vadi's advertisement..

"ur address pls"
"singapore..."
"?! is it a suburb?"
"another country?"
"aye! mumbai ah... india ah..!"

laughs.ok great i went out of point. oh.. anyway tt was about it la... heh. and there's bloody sch tmr. oh god.


now. let me just put wateva random things i can rmb at the moment in point form:

• mel wrote a comment for me to do pw.. WTH.
• imagines pauline a MOTHER. and kb a daughter. OH MAN.
• rainer has a cool blue guitar. b precise. it's electric.
• i think sweet is really pretty. once agn. if i ever bcome a les. it's all becoz of her.
• sally LIKEs his name ALOT. thank me.
• muffin is skinny. eat more.
• TIAN STOP DIETING. WAIT TILL I TURN ANOREXIC. ok fine. i dun think tt will happen twice to me. and tian.. u just need to growin TALLER.--not hinting to turkey.
• PDR. haha. lions will know wat tt mean. LOL. *quack quack*
• baby sent me this. i tot some of them fit me. *SMIRKS. and i just realised i cant copy and paste them sian.

ok. back to pw. OH MY TIAN. arrrrrrrrrrrGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHH. yes. listen to mel and kb. *turns violent"

oh yes. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO __________ --> pple born on 7th/8th/9th/10th/11th/12th oct. like AHHH. oct of such a popular.. so many pple r born in this month. WE ARE COOL PPLE. MUAHAHAH. include audrey chong. ming hwee.. and a hell load of pple. not. srry. HEAVENLY LOAD OF ANGELS.

Sunday, October 7, 2007

Monday, October 1, 2007

5 min ago. i was HAPPPPPY. 5 min later. i dun feel as high. and i shall not mention it.

lets talk about wat happened today so i'll feel happier.

• the day started off really suckily cause i kinda like sat into a pile of cat urine--SIGHS. no idea which idiot cat did i. hence explains why i was late for liondance prac tt was supposed to start at 7.30am. SORRY GOH TIAN. SORRY LIONERS. yea. so ended up reaching at like 8.30am.. ONE HOUR LATE. oops.
• liondance prac ended at 9.50am then i rushed for soccer at the track leaving tian behind still frantically cleaning and dryin in btwn her toes using pathetic toilet paper..--oh well. she prac without shoes/socks.. tt's why she need to wash her feet.. AND YES. she stood on my thigh. which meant tt i also had to clean my blackened thigh. haha. it's okay tian. i'll just treat tt as a temporary new skin colour. MUAHAHHAHA.
• attendance was pathetic. well. what else can u expect.. it was UNOFFICIAL. hence pple like caramel refused to attend as usual. like. it's HOLIDAY. and how can they EXPECT US TO GO BACK TO SCH ON A HOLIDAY. oh. OH YES. happy children's day pple-- i still cant believe my pap called me all of a sudden just to tell me this over my hp. haha. I WISH HIM HAPPY OVER-AGED CHILDREN'S DAY TOO.
• kicked the ball bare-footed since sandles were likely to b e worst footwear to play streetsoccer. yea. so i kinda screwed up my right feet. it's red due to friction and impact with the ball. plus. imagine playin under the damn bloody hot sun at 10am.. OH MY TIAN. i could help but to get farina to lend me 2 helping LEGS. i.e. i stepped on her feet to avoid direct contact with the scorchin ground. LOL. and farina was a nice person to hug. OOOH. but she kinda slapped my butt when both of us lost balance within seconds. HMPH.
• bathed in sch and rushed home before rushing out of the hse to meet sweet n swan at cine supposedly at 1pm. but vainity has gotten into me and i overshot the time when i was tryin to choose which clothes to wear since i seem always to b wearin the same few clothings. but i later realised the clothe that i finally wore was kinda revealing.. esp to the sides..... fine. shan say anything in case it appears porn to any one of u who might b readin this. so anw.. my n swan were late LOL. like reachin abt 20min late in syncro. DAMN PRO RITE. hahahah. SORRY SWEET. i think im turning into a women just like hotlips and glucose. haha.
• ate at BK. and i was alrdy high n happy by then as sweet n swan were bz comparing who got sms-daoed by me more. WTH. I THOUGHT I DID MAKE AN EFFORT TO REPLY THEM AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE?! BK had this bunk aka booch and i cant help starin... OOPS. then they also played some very classic songs... which made me kinda___ as sweet n swan erm abit buay tah han.
• kbox for consecutive 5 hrs from 2-7pm. WAAH it was the most shiok karaoke session for me at least. imagine having the chance to hold the mike so long---but most of the time i did not, cause my voice alone could overpower the volumes of both mikes. pathetic rite... and then scream as loud as u want as u see ur 2 friends either laughing and landing themselves into the couch or to stand on the couch n jump to get as high as u do. WOOTS. damn shiok. unfortunately i was kanna caught jumpin on the couch--YES JUMPIN ON COUCHES ARE ILLEGAL. and fine.. we started dancing, screaming, camwhoring, idolising farenheit and all the shuageis.. OMG. one of e stupid thing we did is to take a pic of the tv cause it showed to face of our idol. WTH. haha. like tt also can rite.
• woots. went for neoprints after tt... and CAMWHORED MORE. like.. everytime one photo was take.. i kan-chiong-ingly said: " QUICK QUICK QUICK!!! CHANGE POSITION CHANGE POSITION!!!" haha... we even had one photo with my hanging behind from the bars. HAHA. yea. somehow there were monkey-bars behind for me to hang. but we didnt print it out cause it was really screwed up.
• in any way.. i really really ENJOYED MY DAY TODAY. AND I WISHED TIME HAS JUST STOPPED IN THE KBOX ROOM. SERIOUSLY.
• hmm. childrens' day. how i wished im still a child, all the time. but then.. i wouldnt have met great awesome pple. i love u sweet n swan. and not to forget. i love u rain--which represents many forms. i love u pap n mom. i love u all whoever who didnt make my bad screw up.
• "at least i live the life i believe".

i think im happier now.

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