gethighgethighgethigh____________
i wanna get high. n i need to. i tried. i tried very hard. but y aint it working? y aint i fittin into the new envt yet? why? emo momo.. wth. fine. wateva. of course im emo. 谁能体谅我的雨天. no way. dull n sad as i m. life still has to go on. i hate this. so much laughter so many smiles. yet still r unable to wash the tense off me... no one wants to b alone. never. then y when im crowded i feel so lost. n then. i want to be alone. im so confusing. my mind refuses to understand itself. as happy as i m.. i never truly know when i'll ever b free. maybe when i join those tt left me first. yes. this must be the way. but. how cud i bear to leave those who r with me now?
im so confusing. i know it myself that i do not know.
All the sleepless nights;
and the tears you cry
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