Tuesday, August 22, 2006
suzie made unreasonable demands today.. gosh.. i hate her. i feel so injust yet i cannot voice out anything---e stupid idiot sngs web said tt i was denied a ******* access....
my mom said tt i wasnt helpin her in e chores which i did but she wasnt tt lookin.. told her i did but she kept insisting tt she had to do eveything and had no time for this n that.. pls. who's more bz to do e work? a sec 4 student preparin for prelims n o's or a full-time housewife? WTH.
i wished i could fill my blog up with vulgarities. i feel everyone r so injust to me today. ****!.
i cried agn. thought of u. more than 3 weeks u've been gone but i still think of u.. i think i'm flunkin my tests agn. ****. since u'r gone, there's nth/no one to play n comfort me.. ma n pa are busy abt themselves n doesnt noe a ******* thing abt wat's happening in sch. i try to tell myself tt i must be independent. but i've lost my life skills since u'r gone. im lost. i miss u. shitto. ****. bro n sis r always bz with their work n studies.. they come home late. i feel so lonely n cold. m i too emotional? no i dun think so. im not tt kind of pple who spend most of her time outside e hse.. in fact, i seriously enjoy e comfort zone at home.. or rather, in e presence of u.
give me a hug, give me a sniff, whack me a tail. or maybe, send me a dream. i really miss u. sorry i did not tell u how much i love u before u left, sorry i neglected u so much becos of sch activities... sorry i didnt have time to enjoy time with u.. i noe u'll never come back...but i wished u did. sorry.
All the sleepless nights;
and the tears you cry
at 10:40 PM